I chose character.

I once said that I believe I went through certain times and events in my life, which I believed served me no purpose whatsoever.
All these times and events did, was served to make me scared of things in life.
"Make me anxious about things, which I would have previously just ignorantly rushed into"

I've gotten to the stage now, where I think I've found a reason for those things.

The reason is fear.

Fear is a beautiful, amazing thing.
I will go out on a limb, and say that fear is the greatest thing in your life.
Your brain, your psyche, it all runs off fear.

This is because, the single best feeling in a persons life, is overcoming fear.
When someone conquers fear, it builds their confidence, their character, and builds them into a stronger person.

These events that had happened to me have just given me an oppourtunity to have more fears to conquer.
And as such, more character to build.

Its the new style.

I couldn't have gotten to where I am now, to who I am now, without going through certain moments.
Win or fail. It's always character building.
Fail is more character building. Win is more confidence building.

Can't have confidence without character.

What would you prefer? Character, or confidence?

Galadriel. I win.

I've written before that everything that ever happens, is purely a matter of perspective.
Whatever you view, is real for you. And real in general.
Because lets be honest, if it's real for you, then that's all that matters.
This is your world, and it's never going to be somebody else's.

Problems in life, can really easily come from trying to view another persons perspective.
Trying to figure out what other people want, (don't get me started on women,) is a fricken recipe for absolute disaster. It causes despair. The kind of despair, that happens when you know you'll never be able to do something, but you still try to.
No one will ever be able to figure out another person fully.
I would know.

Except Derren Brown. He's good at that stuff.

It's impossible to feel how someone is really feeling. And even if you get close, it causes a load of shit and pain. And that's aslong as the process of doing it doesn't kill you first.
I'm not talking about empathy however. That's something completely different.
Thats just putting yourself in another persons shoes, and hoping to feel something.


The amount of pain that everyone goes through in this life, is about all that they can take.
So trying to feel that pain, is like asking your mind and psyche to hurt itself, purely because your conscience feels like it's what should happen.


However, I like to think of myself as an actor.
I mean, sometimes I like to think I can actually class myself as an actor. Other days I can't even mention the word, as I don't feel worthy enough.
But as an actor, I'm told countless times to feel what a character is feeling. But it's impossible. My head isn't up to it.
But from now on, I'm gonna give it a fucking good try. (Nothing's impossible really.)

However, in real life, there's no point.

Just take your own problems and pain, and deal with it.
Don't ask others to share it with you, subconsciously or consciously.
And don't add to other peoples problems either. That cures nothing.

Just quietly get on with the job at hand.