Follow The Leader

Since the dawn of society, and even to an extent humanity, people have always found a way to differentiate others. To put different people, into different classes, groups, or sections.

Male or Female.
Black or White.
Religious or Athiest.

Now on the surface of things, at a human level all people are pretty much the same.(Have you ever been with that person who you really hate because you think they're absolute dickheads, but when you get speaking to them 1 0n 1, you see that you actually have a lot in common? Yeah, that's kinda what I mean.)

So why all this need to seperate people?
Maybe it makes it easier for the brain to remember different people, or makes science experiements easier to classify.
But one of the major classes people differentiate others into, are Leaders and Followers.

And I've always wondered, which one am I?
Because if I'm a leader, then who am I leading?
And if I'm a follower, who am I following?

Now in my opinion, I think it can be pretty easy to see who are the leaders, and who are the followers in everyday life. But I can't actually observe myself.

Is a leader judged as who he is as a person? Or by who he has following him?

I've seen quite a lot of leaders around, and I believe that there are many different types (I'm saying these different types as it makes it easier to comprehend.)

I've seen leaders who can lead without anyone knowing they're really doing it. They are strong, silent and unassuming. They rule with respect.

I've seen other types of leaders who are charasmatic, loud and quite literally lead from the front. These are the people whom others look up to. They are role models.

There are also leaders who people hate, however. These leaders are the ones that observers despise, but at the end of the day, they are needed.

And then, the last type of leaders, are the ones who rule with fear. They prey on people's nice human nature to get what they want. They will use, and abuse people, and in my mind, I can't really see how they can live with themselves, and the taint on their conscience.

Any more?

The University of Disney

For all you people who are off to uni, or wherever else after college, I'm sure you've started to do your bit of "growing up," "facing reality" and pretentious "soul searching."

Well, I have anyway.
But all in all, it's a bit useless isn't it? I haven't found my soul yet, and I honestly believe that I never will.
Actually, thats a lie. I believe I've already found it.
I found it about 19 years ago.
When I was born.
For me, this whole facing reality bollocks is a bit useless. I mean, why am I only just living in reality now?What has my life up to this point been?
A friggin episode of Byker Grove?

Now, I find, that facing facts, in life, causes some pretty bad feelings to emerge. Noone likes to face facts, because they can be pretty harsh.In fact, our brains are programmed to actually block out the harsh and horrible facts in life. (Think Shutter Island)
So whats the point?
If I were to face facts, I would see that I'm kinda a loser in life.

I could write down all the things that make me a loser, but why the fuck should I do that?

Instead, I'm going to write down all the things that I trick myself into thinking.
All the traits that I like to think I'm known for.
I know deep down I'm not. But this isn't about that.

• I'm smart. Super intelligent smart. My IQ is 139, and I believe my brain kind of resembles a more realistic version of Sherlock Holmes'.
• I'm strong. Nearly 6'3'' and slightly built as well. I may not look much, but I can definitley stand up for myself in a fight with anyone. And I can throw a mean fucking punch.
  
• I'm an actor. I believe I'm the best actor that I personally know of, or have seen with my own eyes. No one has the charisma and stage presence of me.
• I'm troubled. I have had problems in the past, but I'm pretty much over them. I will never be the same again, but I don't really care. What ever that has happened, has made me who I am. I kind of see myself as an inspiration.
  

Now deep down, I know all of these are bollocks. But whenever I imagine people thinking of me, these are what I hope they all think.
They're pretentious, arrogant, and very self centred. But I'm not gonna centre myself in anyone else am I?

I would now like to do an experiment.
I'm asking any of you who have read this far, to write down in the comments what traits or qualities you would like to believe you appear as.
You can do it anonymously, so no one will know who you actually are.
Be pretentious. Be arrogant. Be self centred.

Be yourself. Not your real, "facing reality" self. Be the super hero you always like the think you are.

It's much happier.