The University of Disney

For all you people who are off to uni, or wherever else after college, I'm sure you've started to do your bit of "growing up," "facing reality" and pretentious "soul searching."

Well, I have anyway.
But all in all, it's a bit useless isn't it? I haven't found my soul yet, and I honestly believe that I never will.
Actually, thats a lie. I believe I've already found it.
I found it about 19 years ago.
When I was born.
For me, this whole facing reality bollocks is a bit useless. I mean, why am I only just living in reality now?What has my life up to this point been?
A friggin episode of Byker Grove?

Now, I find, that facing facts, in life, causes some pretty bad feelings to emerge. Noone likes to face facts, because they can be pretty harsh.In fact, our brains are programmed to actually block out the harsh and horrible facts in life. (Think Shutter Island)
So whats the point?
If I were to face facts, I would see that I'm kinda a loser in life.

I could write down all the things that make me a loser, but why the fuck should I do that?

Instead, I'm going to write down all the things that I trick myself into thinking.
All the traits that I like to think I'm known for.
I know deep down I'm not. But this isn't about that.

• I'm smart. Super intelligent smart. My IQ is 139, and I believe my brain kind of resembles a more realistic version of Sherlock Holmes'.
• I'm strong. Nearly 6'3'' and slightly built as well. I may not look much, but I can definitley stand up for myself in a fight with anyone. And I can throw a mean fucking punch.
  
• I'm an actor. I believe I'm the best actor that I personally know of, or have seen with my own eyes. No one has the charisma and stage presence of me.
• I'm troubled. I have had problems in the past, but I'm pretty much over them. I will never be the same again, but I don't really care. What ever that has happened, has made me who I am. I kind of see myself as an inspiration.
  

Now deep down, I know all of these are bollocks. But whenever I imagine people thinking of me, these are what I hope they all think.
They're pretentious, arrogant, and very self centred. But I'm not gonna centre myself in anyone else am I?

I would now like to do an experiment.
I'm asking any of you who have read this far, to write down in the comments what traits or qualities you would like to believe you appear as.
You can do it anonymously, so no one will know who you actually are.
Be pretentious. Be arrogant. Be self centred.

Be yourself. Not your real, "facing reality" self. Be the super hero you always like the think you are.

It's much happier.