The Opposite Concept of Horoscopes.

Ever noticed that when you want something in particular, real bad, it never happens.
Ever noticed that when you need something in particular, real bad, it never happens.

Now everyone wants to have good things, right?
And everyone needs good things to happen, right?
And good things do happen. A lot.
But when you want one thing, so much, it just doesn't work out for you.
So what I've taken to doing, is not wanting anything too much.

I don't ever have a passionate desire to have something, because that way, I know I won't ever get it. And even if by some crazy stretch of imagination, I do get it, I know it won't be as good as I have built it up to be in my head.

Instead, I say fuck it, and care about getting as little as possible. Because that way I feel that I'm more likely to get good things.

Or maybe it's just that when the good things do happen, they seem better because I'm not expecting them?

Is this some crazy karma shit, where life rewards you for just living for the moment?
Or is it just a trick of the mind?

Maybe it's both.

I WRITE IN CAPS BECAUSE THAT WAY ITS FUCKING LOUD.

Experiment time.

I want you to turn your music up. If you're not listening to music, then put some on.
Turn it up real loud. Louder than it has ever been before. As loud as it can go.
So loud that in 20 years time you'll have shite hearing because of it.

So loud that it's destructive.

Because that is the time when I feel the most peace, and the most silence.
Your consciousness is so taken up by the fact that theres this shit loud music blasting in your ears, that you forget everything else. All you care about is the music.
Isn't it fucking bliss?

You not caring about anyone knocking on your door, because you wont hear it anyway.
You dont care about your phone going off, because you wont hear it anyway.
You don't care about anything else because there is no point. You won't hear it.

Like I said, bliss.
If only I could find a (legal) way to do this with the other senses.

I... um..... I.....

Ever struggled for words?

Not knowing what to say, whether it be in an argument or when writing a Christmas card is annoying. You can sit there for hours, and end up writing 3 words.

Fuck this shit.

I should know, my personal statement has taken me fucking years.

But I've realised now, that whenever you're truly angry, or truly sorry, you never struggle for words.

When you're there, crying your eyes out over somebody, you never, ever run out of things to say.

Your brain just knows exactly what to say.

It always knows what to say, and thats the truth.

Whenever you are passionate about something, and its truly affected you, you can talk forever about it. And thats because in your heart, it's true.

Subconsciously, your brain always has an opinion on something. It always has something to say.

And if you are ever struggling for something to say, then it's probably because what you want to say, isn't the truth.

People lie for all sorts of reasons. And not just to others, but also to themselves.

So if you've ever wondered how you truly feel, or if you're just lying to yourself, you should talk about it.

Because if it's true, you will be able to talk forever.

Fonder Absence The Heart Makes Grow.

Continuing the nostalgia trend, take a quick look back at past times.
Have a jog through your memory.
And think about all the times you hated.

Yup, think about all those times you did something you regretted, or think about previous failures, or even think about long lost loves.

Done?
Now I'm betting that when you look back at those times, you're not feeling bad about it all. In fact, I'm betting you're sat there maybe even smiling right now.

Because even though at that moment in time, those events that happened made you think it was the end of the world, now, they just seem quite funny.

And do you know why that is?
It's because you were having fun.
....By living

It may not have seemed like it at the time, but for every second you experience a terrible, and strong emotion, you are having so much fun!

Because you lived through it. And well fucking done you.

So next time you leave the house, do something absolutely crazy that you know you're gonna regret.

Because to live through it, is awesome.

WARNING: NOSTALGIA CAN BE DANGEROUS.

A lot of people have said to me, that I need to make my blog a bit more personal.
Because otherwise it's not really a blog.

So I've done this.
It's the last 3 and a half years of my life. In picture form. With accompanying music tracks, that have had an effect on me at that certain time in my life.
And it's fucking long.
52 songs. 425 pictures.


It's not perfect, but that's because it's not done as a film. It's done as a memory. One big long, imperfect, messed up, choppy memory.
I've also missed bits out. (I dont seem to have one picture of when Markus came over!!)

The music quality is also a bit dodgy at times too. And I gave up on fitting the tracks together very early on.

However, it is personal.

WARNING: NOSTALGIA CAN BE DANGEROUS.

Let it out.

I was told in my training week here at Disney, that when you pose for a picture inside one of your costumes, you will still smile, even though no one can see it. As if it is actually you who is being photographed, and not the big plastic face that has been slapped on your head.

But I don't.

I pull some of the most disgusting faces ever. I mean, I'm not doing it for fun, it's just that I'm usually really tired, warm, pissed off, or just plain damn uncomfortable.
I will then let those feelings and emotions control what goes on my face.

There's no point trying to hide what I'm feeling with a great big smile across my face. I would just be lying to myself.

I've learnt to not hide emotions like that, except if I have to. Which I do, regularly, as it's my job to, but thats not the point.

One of the most important things I've ever learnt is to not hide emotions, or desires.
Putting up a curtain in front of these things only causes you to think about them more. And like I said before, thinking is dangerous.

People who hide themselves and their feelings are usually very quiet. They don't talk much, and they struggle to really show their true personality to others.
In fact, they probably also struggle to show themselves the real them too.

So why don't we all just let it the fuck out?

Be ballsy and try it.
Say fuck it and try it.
Rebel, and try it.

Only smile if you feel like it.
If you don't then don't.

Which is why I try not to smile for every photo that people take of me, in costume or not.
Only if I feel like it.

Be honest with yourself.
Admit to every dark desire that you hold deep down, even if you know it's wrong. It's still you.
Cry to everything that upsets you, no matter how small and petty it may seem.

Sometimes I don't follow my own advice. This pisses me off.

Impulsive Thinking

Illuminati, 9/11, Zeitgiest, 2012, and countless other conspiracy theories.
All this thinking will make a man go crazy.

Heck, even thinking about thinking is pretty fucked up, and that's what this blog is about!

I like to think of myself as a smart guy. Not especially academical, and not with the most street sense, but I like to take comfort in the fact that I believe I have an extremely quick and logical brain.And I think a lot.

And now, dear readers, I am going to tell you the greatest thing I have ever learned: To not think.
Acting without thinking is the greatest way forward in life.
Acting on impulse.
Primal instinct.
Pure desire.

FACT: Above average intelligence people are way more likely to experience depression in their life.
Why? Because they think too much.
Thinking is bad for the brain.

So I implore you, right now, to go and do something that you just instinctively want to do.
Whether it's to go eat some chocolate,
or text that girl,
or even just going to sleep. Whatever you just purely want to do, fucking do it.

Impulses are there for a reason. Not to be shunned.

And let me leave you with this:

Whenever faced with a 50/50 decision, and you don't know which to choose, flip a coin.

Not because then you will have a decision made for you, but for the fact that in that split second that the coin is in the air, you will be wishing for it to land on the side you really want.