Let it out.

I was told in my training week here at Disney, that when you pose for a picture inside one of your costumes, you will still smile, even though no one can see it. As if it is actually you who is being photographed, and not the big plastic face that has been slapped on your head.

But I don't.

I pull some of the most disgusting faces ever. I mean, I'm not doing it for fun, it's just that I'm usually really tired, warm, pissed off, or just plain damn uncomfortable.
I will then let those feelings and emotions control what goes on my face.

There's no point trying to hide what I'm feeling with a great big smile across my face. I would just be lying to myself.

I've learnt to not hide emotions like that, except if I have to. Which I do, regularly, as it's my job to, but thats not the point.

One of the most important things I've ever learnt is to not hide emotions, or desires.
Putting up a curtain in front of these things only causes you to think about them more. And like I said before, thinking is dangerous.

People who hide themselves and their feelings are usually very quiet. They don't talk much, and they struggle to really show their true personality to others.
In fact, they probably also struggle to show themselves the real them too.

So why don't we all just let it the fuck out?

Be ballsy and try it.
Say fuck it and try it.
Rebel, and try it.

Only smile if you feel like it.
If you don't then don't.

Which is why I try not to smile for every photo that people take of me, in costume or not.
Only if I feel like it.

Be honest with yourself.
Admit to every dark desire that you hold deep down, even if you know it's wrong. It's still you.
Cry to everything that upsets you, no matter how small and petty it may seem.

Sometimes I don't follow my own advice. This pisses me off.